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Life isn't too easy nowadays; being a daughter, dedicating time to family, maintaining grades, and also not neglecting my friends. Junior year has come along and was going to be one of the most important and hardest throughout high school. While I juggle school and friends all in one year, I seemed to forget the one person who has been an important part of my life. After ten years of friendship, I had a gut feeling something was bound to happen, whether it is good or bad. Soon enough did I realize that not only communication was lost between the two of us, but the thought of losing my best friend did not cross my mind. I would glance, stare or even hold my phone debating whether or not a simple "hello" or "how are you?" would make a difference in this situation. I close my eyes, my heartbeat was slow, and my fingers apply pressure to the small green button on my phone. I take long deep breaths as I wait. Soon enough, her voice mail comes through the phone; I click "end call" and continue with my homework. The thoughts that filled my head did not consist of worry about friendship, but rather the worrying of not being able to finish homework. The simple 30 seconds with a cellphone pressed against my ear awaiting a voice to brighten up my mood didn't make a difference in my day. Not a feeling of being let down filled my body.

Two days passed, a week passed, and eventually an entire month passed; my stomach dropped and the feeling I should have had months before finally hit me. I came to senses that our friendship was going down the drain. I was lost. I was confused. I didn't know what to do or how to handle this dilemma that has never occurred with this person before. My friends, family, and even teachers have told me before "the situations you face with friendships are a test; it will either make it, or break it". Despair clogs my thoughts from being positive. Nothing else is left to do except accepting reality.